Tuesday, July 29, 2008
The movies that I saw were Hancock and Get Smart. I liked both, Hancock was a great new way of looking at Superheroes and featured Charlize Theron. *Swoon*. I didn't like the camera angles and the camera work was weird. Get Smart was very funny, even though me and my friend laughed at numerous scenes at which nobody else laughed.
I've started watching Crossing Jordan because an online friend has told me that it's good and that Brooke Smith is in it, which is reason enough to watch mainly anything. Except Silence of the Lambs, because that movie just freaks me out. So far, I'm really enjoying it! Brooke's character is really great and she gets to do some great acting. I realized, mainly due to the intro, that Tim Kring wrote and produced Crossing Jordan as well as Heroes. He seems very talented, as I like both shows!
"This just out with Liz Feldman" is back for season 2 and I loved the new episode. Made me want to go to a pride parade right now. I am still disappointed that I couldn't go to the one in Vienna this year either.
Friday, July 25, 2008
Watching Nim's Island last Sunday did not trigger this week's weekend crush. Two days ago, I finally saw Little Man Tate, Jodie Foster's directorial debut. The movie tells the story of 7-year-old prodigy Fred Tate and his mother's struggle with his intelligence. Jodie played the mother, Dede, who did not know how to deal with having an extremely smart child and Dianne Wiest played a scientist specialised in prodigies. I enjoyed the movie, the acting was good and it was well written. The pace was slow, which I guess is typical for a movie from that time (1991) and even though I'm not used to this, I still enjoyed it.
I think that Jodie Foster is extremely smart herself. Her interviews seem that way, even though she rarely gives much away in said interviews. She guards her private life as thoroughly as possible, which seems very logical given her history (John Hinckley). Jodie is a mom to two boys who were conceived through a sperm donor. I guess we all know that Jodie is playing for my team, but she has never really admitted that, which is fine to me. Her relationships are not really anybodies business except for the people involved. I somehow always feel uneasy when I read about her relationships because we will probably never really know what is true and what isn't, so I prefer not knowing anything at all.
"Normal is not something to aspire to, it's something to get away from."
Thursday, July 24, 2008
Today, my parents are finally coming home from their holiday and I'm already looking forward to that! Right now, the weather pretty much sucks a lot, it's raining and I haven't seen the sun in two days. It's really cold as well, one 15° Celsius, which cnn tells me are 61° Fahrenheit. Which is way to cold for summer!!
My godmother, whom I love and with whom I have a great relationship, is getting a divorce. Actually, her husband of nearly 40 years decided that he wanted to spend the rest of his days "in tranquillity" and that he couldn't do that with her, because she always wants to do things and visit places and just enjoy her life with her friends and family. The whole situation is really sad, because she did not want to get a divorce but he more or less forced her to move out of their house. She now lives in a flat while he lives in one of those assisted living apartments. I don't really know how to help her and I feel like all I can do is spend time with her. But that doesn't seem enough. It just makes me so sad because I feel like I can't really make her feel better.
Für mich ist es teilweise etwas schwierig auf Deutsch zu schreiben, weil ich dass so mit Schule verbinde. Wenn ich also etwas nur für mich und zum Spaß schreiben will, so wie diesen Blog oder Fanfiction, dann mache ich das lieber auf Englisch. Außerdem gibt es gewisse Vokabel einfach nicht auf Deutsch (to come out, babydyke, butch...). Aber, da ich anscheinend einige Leser aus Österreich und Deutschland habe, werde ich mich manchmal dazu aufraffen und meine Muttersprache verwenden. Und ich werde mich bemühen dass das dann nicht zu offiziell oder hochgestochen klingt, denn so kommts mir im Moment vor.
Ich nehme mal an dass meine österreichischen Leser die HOSI kennen, falls nicht: die HOSI ist die Homosexuellen Initiative und vertritt die Rechte von Schwulen und Lesben. Ich bin Mitglied bei der HOSI in Linz und bekomme daher regelmäßig Post von der HOSI oder den Grünen Andersrum. Gestern hab ich von den Grünen Andersrum eine Wahlwerbung bekommen unter dem Titel "Lesben & Gesellschaft: Grenzen und Möglichkeiten lesbischen Lebens". Ich finde es ja schon mal total positiv dass zwischen Lesben und Schwulen unterschieden wird, da ja teilweise die Aufmerksamkeit und die Probleme differieren. In dem Folder wird beschrieben mit welchen Problemen Lesben zu kämpfen haben. Was mich etwas stutzig gemacht hat war dass die Situation ziemlich negativ dargestellt wurde. Nachdem ich alles gelesen hatte, hab ich mir gedacht: Eigentlich könnte ich mich jetzt auch gleich umbringen, so schlecht wie es um mich steht. Mir ist durchaus bewusst dass ich dadurch dass ich studiere mehr Freiheiten als andere Lesben hab und ich mich zum Beispiel nicht um Diskriminierung am Arbeitsplatz kümmern muss. Aber so schlimm wie die Situation von den Grünen dargestellt wird finde ich es nun auch wieder nicht. Immerhin ist Homosexualität in Österreich nicht strafbar und man kann hier relativ offen leben. Natürlich bin ich für eine Gleichstellung von hetero- und homosexuellen Beziehungen, auch der Ehe, aber weil es die nicht gibt muss ich nicht gleich depressiv werden.
Ich habe erst einmal gewählt, bei der Nationalratswahl 2006. Auch wenn ich lesbisch bin heißt das nicht unbedingt dass ich automatisch grün wähle. Ich gehöre nicht zu den Personen die übermäßig politisch sind, weil ich für die Politik zu emotional bin und dieses Thema einfach sehr oft zu Streitigkeiten führt. Ich bin sehr froh und dankbar dass sich die Grünen für unsere Rechte einsetzen, aber meiner Meinung nach haben sie mit diesem Folder etwas übers Ziel hinausgeschossen. Mich hat auch gestört dass in dem Folder davon gesprochen wird, dass Lesben sich verbergen und "Heteras" spielen. Meiner Meinung nach besteht ein Unterschied dazwischen ob ich mit meinen Arbeitskollegen mein Privatleben bespreche oder ob ich vorgebe, einen Freund zu haben und hetero zu sein. Dieser Satz wirft für mich die Frage auf: Wer hat diesen Folder geschrieben? Vorwürfe machen ist nämlich gerade nicht nett oder hilfreich!! Reagiere ich über oder haben die Grünen übers Ziel geschossen? Den Folder kann man hier herunterladen.
Monday, July 21, 2008
This weekend, I was at the Pflasterspektakel twice, once on Friday and once on Saturday. I and a friend danced in the samba parade both days, which was so much fun and then we saw the fire shows that take place at night at the main square. On Saturday, the artists had a big finale, in which most of the fire artists participated and it was amazing! They did some things that I hadn't seen before and it blew my mind!
Today, I finally went to watch Nim's Island and it was ok, I enjoyed it but I sort of expected more - I guess because I'm not used to Jodie Foster being in such a movie and such a role. I loved Abigail Breslin, she was great as usual and I like Jodie Foster as well, she was funny. I guess this was one of the movies that just really is a kid movie and works best for kids.
Brooke Smith was at the ABC All-Star TCA press tour party and did two interviews with slight spoilers for Season 5's Callica storyline. The first one is with EW's Ausiello and is very cute and actually interesting. Michael Ausiello is the guy who first predicted that Erica Hahn would turn out to be gay and he apparently knows a lot about the business. Brooke's very cute in the interview (love her hair!!) and she once again gushes about Sara Ramirez (who could blame her?). The second one is great too - and Brooke knows that we are out there!! We being Callica fans. I'm not crazy about the fact that we miss 2 weeks, but they seem to know how to deal with the relationship, so *YAY*!
Friday, July 18, 2008
Update: Shoot! A reader [thanks!] just alerted me to the fact that I didn't mention Gia and I can't believe that I forgot that movie! The reason why I didn't mention it before is because it doesn't fit in my timeline. When I was on vacation in Canada in 2005, I looked in every DVD store for that movie until I finally found it in Vancouver two days before the vacation ended. I took it home and figured out how to play a different regional code on my computer and and the first chance I got at being alone at home I watched the movie. And it pretty much blew my mind. Because Angelina Jolie and Elizabeth Mitchell together, in bed, make any coherent thoughts pretty impossible. I've also seen Original Sin, the two Lara Croft movies, Gone in Sixty Seconds, The Bone Collector, Pushing Tin and Foxfire on TV.
Thursday, July 17, 2008
Yesterday, I went to the cinema and watched "Kung Fu Panda" with a friend of mine, Ms. G. The movie was great, I laughed a lot and I like the plot and the philosophical meaning. I still can't get over how different Angelina's voice sounded. I guess it's true that the voice animation work (don't know the term, sorry) is like acting, you can't just be yourself. After the movie we went to a cafe and had a really long, really interesting conversation about all the world and his wive. All in all, an enjoyable and very nice evening. Ms. G. is going to go abroad to study for one year, so that makes me kinda sad, but we'll keep in touch through the internet and I'm really happy for her because she was able to go to the university that was her first choice - because she's a really good student! And in case you're reading this, Ms. G. - have a great time in Denmark!!
You should all very definitely hop over to Dorothy Snarker and read her post on Helen Mirren. Warning: will cause drooling and a short circus in your brain!!! Dame Hellen Mirren looks better in a bikini than a lot of people that I know, and I'm talking about people in their 20s. She definitely looks 100 times better than me in a bikini, which is why I don't wear bikini's. Anyways, go there, but at your own risk! And don't blame me if you can't stop drooling afterwards!!
Wednesday, July 16, 2008
Today, my summer holidays finally started. I had my "Strategy and Marketing" exam and it was fine, I guess. I knew all the answers, just couldn't think of two terms, but apart from that I'm satisfied with myself. I guess I could have learned more, but I was just too tired from this term. So tomorrow, I'll go back home and then on Friday, two friends from Innsbruck will come visit me and we'll go to the "Pflasterspektakel". The Pflasterspektakel is a cultural event that takes place in my hometown each year and artists from all over the world come and perform on the street in the city center. It's pretty amazing, there are always a few really good artists, doing acrobatics and all kinds of acts. So we're going to go there and then I'll show them around a bit. My parents are on holiday, so I'll be home alone for a full week, if you count the days when I have visitors. But I'm really looking forward to that, I love having the house to myself, then I can really do as I like.
Today, I have to go to the library and return the books and then I'll start packing and in the evening, I'm meeting a friend of mine and we'll watch "Kung Fu Panda". I don't really know what to expect, but I'll just have a good time.
Monday, July 14, 2008
There's a new promo for "This just out with Liz Feldman" and I have to say that Raimy is really beautiful. She has amazing eyes and just a beautiful face. I know that I am repeating myself, but she's not just cute and funny, she's really beautiful. *Swoon*. Plus, I love their glasses and hats - very cute! The song is the new theme song for "This just out" by Uh Huh Her.
A new episode of "She made me watch this" with Sarah and Lori is online and guess what? Betty DeGeneres, Ellen's mum, is the guest! How cool is that? The interview is really nice and interesting and just to think that she gave us Ellen makes me like her even more.
Sunday, July 13, 2008
The media has gone crazy over those babies even before they were born and there were two false announcements that Angelina has given birth. People magazine even has an own little section on their homepage just for the twins! Crazyness!!
Friday, July 11, 2008
To me, a crush can be and mean a lot of things - mostly, it means that I'm not really in love with the person. I can only know one part of a person and have a crush on her skills (eg acting, writing, being gorgeous) and having a crush on a lady doesn't necessarily mean that I want to jump her bones. Just wanted to clear this up.
I've been reading so much fanfiction in the last few weeks and I feel like these stories have kept me sane, at least as sane as I am. At Grey's Anatomy Fanfiction, I stumbled burningeden aka Chelle's stories. I started reading "One Heart Too Many" and I immediately loved it!! Chelle doesn't just use what the Grey's writers gave her and writes some more, she really takes apart the characters, adding complex histories and writing extended storylines for each of the characters in her stories. Her fanfics are also way longer than most, which I very much appreciate because it feels like I'm reading a novel. After I read the first 18 chapters of "One Heart Too Many" and couldn't wait for an update, I decided to check out her other stories. I have to say that "Ready For A Fall" and the sequel "Fallen" are also amazing. Normally, I only read stories with the pairing I'm really invested in, mainly Callica or Caddison. But her writing entertains me so much that I'll read any story she wrote because it's so easy to get invested in her stories. I had to literally force myself to go to bed at 3 am one day because I didn't want to stop reading "Fallen". I thought the suspense would probably kill me in my sleep. Chelle has agreed to me posting two small parts of her stories to give you a tiny little taste. Thanks, Chelle! If you plan on reading her stories, which you really should, here's my spoiler warning! I think I posted some rather neutral parts which don't give too much away, but I'd still like to warn you anyways.
From "One Heart Too Many", Chapter Seven:
"My brother Joel arrives and he skirts the table where I’m sitting. Trevor is allowed to run and greet me ... Hope keeps a firm grip on Savannah. My niece tugs twice to get away, but Hope hangs onto her so tightly that I see her hand turn red and she cries out. Her eyes meet mine and she reaches for me, but she’s not *allowed* to love me. Or touch me. Or come to me.
The truth breaks over me.
They think their son is safe with me as his aunt ... but
their daughter is not because I’m attracted to girls."
I love the things Chelle writes about being gay and how much being out hurts sometimes. Some things she writes touch me so much because I know what it feels like and even when I haven't had really bad experiences (violence, hate crimes), I still feel pain for every gay person who gets killed or commits suicide (just think of the recent Lawrence King murder or all the other hate crime victims.
Chelle writes things that touch me, sometimes also because they feel very close to me. "One Heart Too Many", Chapter Seventeen:
"When you convince yourself that you don’t like people, you really do it because people don’t like you and it hurts less to say it first. You make yourself an outcast before anyone else can do it for you because you can at least save face when it happens."I don't think that that's what I do, because I have tried so hard to not be an outcast and I still always end up that way. But when she writes something like that, it makes me contemplative and that's a GOOD thing! She also has pop culture references, which is like an added bonus (even though I don't get all of them, but hey, I'm from Austria, so you have to forgive me) and her *cough*sex scenes*cough* are very satisfying as well. And I don't even LIKE straight sex.
Unfortunately, Chelle has an operation today, so we should all include her in our thoughts and send some good juju her way!
So now that you know all you need to know, hop over to her site and let yourself be pulled into her world. It's worth the trip, believe me!
Thursday, July 10, 2008
We took the tram from the centre of Innsbruck
up in the mountains and then took the mountain
railway and finally walked the rest of the way.
Wednesday, July 9, 2008
I need time for myself a lot. Maybe it's just because I've never been in a relationship and am therefore used to being on my own. But I really enjoy being on my own too, because I feel like I am more in touch with myself when I have some time in which I don't have to socialise. Because this is what it feels like for me sometimes: not like a want, but like an external pressure to socialise. I love my friends and family, but sometimes I really much rather be left alone than spend time with them. Maybe that's also because most of my friends aren't interested in what I am interested in and therefore I need time to process all the things that I can't talk about to my friends.
I wonder how much of that is me and how much of that is the situation I'm in. I guess this might make me a loner or a stranger (as in strange person), but honestly, I don't care most of the time. Any thoughts on that?
I love Raimy's belly laugh! I can't wait for the second season, Liz does the most hilarious interviews ever! I still can't stop laughing when I watch her very first episode, in which she interviews "Shane from The L Word". Plus, Liz has Raimy - "the one friend, that's like the coolest person ever ... and everything they do is cool. You feel cool when you're with them, but as soon as you step out of their shadow, you are like 'I can't believe what a lameass I am'"! I had a friend like that as well in junior high school and I have to admit that I might have a little crush on Raimy. She's cute, I have absolutely no idea what she's talking about most of the time but she does, which I find highly attractive (her knowing what she's talking about, not me having no clue) and she has a great smile that makes her eyes sparkle! Back to the promos: they are short, but sweet and they make me look forward to the next season even more!!
I am rewatching the old episodes of Grey's Anatomy and I realised why I didn't immediately obsess about Callie. No 1 - She really had a small role in the beginning. No 2 - While she very actively flirted with George, she was still very insecure, eg when George found out that she lives in the basement, she tells him that she's not a freak. I like Callie more when she's demanding, when she knows what she wants and just gets it. I'm not really sure whether she has actually evolved as much as I think or whether I'm making this up. But I feel like she isn't as insecure anymore. *ponders*
Monday, July 7, 2008
It looks like we'll have elections in September in Austria. Not even two years ago in October (I think), the last elections were held and the legislative period would be 4 years, but it seems our politicians can't work together anymore. I'm frustrated and annoyed by the political landscape right now and honestly, I don't know who I should vote for if we had elections on Sunday. I take my civic duty seriously, therefore not voting is not an option to me. However, none of the 5 parties in Austria impress me with their manifestos. I can easily rule out three of the five parties, leaving two with whom I partly agree. Right now, I would just love to show my irritation and lack of respect for them by voting invalidate. If enough voters did that, then the politicians might get the message. But I'm not sure that they care. So, this is a frustrating situation for me, because not much has happened in the two years since the last election and until we have a new administration, nothing will happen. No new laws will be passed and this inactivity bothers me. One of my favourite quotes about politics, by Winston Churchill:
Democracy is the worst form of government except for all those other forms that have been tried from time to time.'Nuff said.
Congratulations to Thomas Beatie and his wife Nancy, who became parents of a little baby girl two weeks ago! I wish them all the luck in the world and that their child does not have to face all the discrimination they had to face. Just because it might be hard to wrap the idea of a pregnant man around our collective head, doesn't make it wrong.
Congratulations also to Nicole Kidman and Keith Urban, who also welcomed a little baby girl into this world today. The girl is called Sunday Rose Kidman Urban and was born in Nashville this morning. (People magazine reports)
Friday, July 4, 2008
I’m shamelessly stealing this idea from Dorothy Surrenders, whose weekend crush this special Pride weekend is: Maria Bello. Yummy, mhm... can't ... form ... sentences. Hmh. I'm in a happy place right now. Seriously, I think Maria should have been on my top ten list!
Pictures from Ellen-DeGeneres.com
Wednesday, July 2, 2008
The other days, I mainly did absolutely nothing. I spent most time in front of my computer, either reading fanfics or watching videos on youtube. I felt like I really needed that time off because I needed to recharge my batteries. Tomorrow, I’ll – finally!! – have the last class at university this term. We have to present our project and talk for 10 minutes, which will be interesting. I have prepared everything and met with my colleagues today to finish the presentation and I really hope that everything will be satisfactory to our teacher.
I’ve been wanting to write about this movie, but I always forgot: Two weeks ago, I watched “Heartbreak Hotel” with a friend at our local cinema. We had a blast, the movie was so funny at times and so sad at others and just great!! I felt like this was the realistic version of “Sex and the city”. There are two main characters in this movie who meet and start to spend time together. Both are in their 40s and single and just struggle with life sometimes. So, if you want to laugh and maybe even cry for two hours, this is a great way to spend an evening with friends!