Tuesday, October 14, 2008

O Sleep, Where Art Thou?

What do you do when its past one at night, you've been trying to go to sleep for almost an hour and the wheels in your head just won't stop turning? You blog about it!

There are a few posts that have been going through my mind for a while. I started this blog for two reasons. One, I wanted to comment on all the pop-culture thoughts that went through my mind anyways. Two, I felt like I needed an outlet for the things that I can't or don't talk about to any of my friends. I have posted a few personal things in the past and since this is my blog and those posts were about me, I always knew what I felt comfortable posting with. Now I have this post already written in my mind and I don't know if I can post it. I feel like I need to get this out of my system because I want to let it go, but it's not really my story. It's the story of a person I love very dearly and while she'd probably never read it, I'm still not sure whether I'm comfortable with posting it.

Then there's this thing called privacy. I don't know and have no control over who reads this blog. Most people, especially ones from my past, know my nickname, so I'm thinking it's not impossible for them to find my blog if they want to find it. My guess is that the number of people who know me or have met me and who read this blog is between 0 and 10, probably leaning towards 0. I've told two friends from Austria about the blog and one very dear friend who I've never met IRL but we've been friends for a while. However, I don't really know whether any of them still read my ramblings. I don't really mind either way, but blogging about my issues and blogging about somebody else's issues makes a difference.

Long story short, I have stuff going through my head that I need to find answers within, but what I need more importantly is to be able to sleep. And I can't. Writing down what is going through your head is supposed to help, I might be able to tell you later that day if that's true or not.

Good night, sleep well!


V. said...

I don't know whether you've already done so (or if this is indeed possible here, since I'm not too familiar with Blogspot), but couldn't you write your post and then set it to private so that only you as the creator could read it? That way, you could get things off your chest but you wouldn't have to do it, well, "in public".
Just a thought.

Nelfy said...

I've thought about this option, but what I initially wanted was that I would post stuff under personal and my readers would have to log in or something to read the post. but I don't really think that you guys would be interested in registering with me first. but that way, I would have been able to "see" who reads my personal posts. but that's not an option at blogspot, that works eg at livejournal. I'll just figure something out with myself, we'll see.

thanks for the input!

Anonymous said...

ah. ill register. :)
i hope you got that sleep you wanted. and yes, i am worried about the privacy issue too.

Anonymous said...

oops. that was me, noora.